Jun 26, 2009


a: your posts sound like you're very confused..

me: well, that's what a person would say if they didn't understand..

(to myself: sometimes i am confused..)

the answer (not in exact words) : Confusion is a good thing. It's good that you are confused. It means that you are seeking to know. It's better to be confused than to conclude.. When you have experienced the pain of ignorance, you will seek to know.

i must say, i feel very glad to admit that i do not know anything about God. it's like a great burden taken off me. i do not have a stance. i do not have an opinion. i simply do not know. nor do i want to believe anything. i am just ready to experience, first hand.

Jun 4, 2009


sadhguru says...

"All dreams come from your mind. dreams cannot go into your soul, if there is one. So it doesn't matter what kind of dreams you have. Whether you see god, or you see a demon in your dreams it doesn't matter. Whatever is utmost in your consciousness reflects itself. Generally, 90% of dreams are just an expression of unfulfilled desire.
Dreams always come from the mind. Do not attach too much importance to dreams. Stop dreaming and start living, it's time."

whenever i ponder over things, i come up with a question. whenever i come up with a question, it is answered within a week. such is the way with sadhguru.

last night i dreamed of my friends. friends, from college.

meenal, neetu, smitha, kirthi, deepthi. and karthik and sid and mouli. and baba..

we were at a table, eating together, talking, laughing.

just a few days back, i was telling murali.. how i wish i had been to Isha before college. so many silly things could have been avoided. now i laugh at myself. even that laugh has a different flavour to it. now it is so whole hearted..

now there is no pain. :-) anywhere. even deep down inside. in any nook or corner. truthfully.

now life is truly beautiful.

there were so many good times.. wonderful times. i don't know if i miss them or not. i don't know if i want them back. i don't know if we can have them back if even if we wanted..

my life has now come to this...

i don't know. i am happy.